How do I know if I’m making the right choice 😔

I’ve been going through a lot recently. I’ve felt like my life has crumbled and fallen at feet all while being the best time I’ve ever had. One minute I’m so happy and everything great then the next I’m miserable and can’t find a fucking way out. The problem is my boyfriend offers no type of support for me. Hell give me hugs and kisses when I’m down and try to make me happy but it usually ends up being about him. He never really compliments me or touches me I’ve brought it up to him sm that at this point I’ve started to feel like I’m unattractive to him. But why at the same time is he just the best guy ever. He’s so sweet and sensitive and I don’t think I’ve had to clean a damn thing in my house since we got together a little over a year ago. He makes sure I eat, and rolls me blunts all day long alwYs rubs my back and makes sure I come home to dinner when I’m working. A lot of other things to which is why I’m struggling so bad… I crave wanting to be alone live alone and just do me till I can figure out how I am by myself. I wish I could just take a break from like and relationships romantic or otherwise and when I’m ready it all just go back but at the same time why would I want back what I was trying to escape. God I just don’t know nothing feels right anymore. How can I love this man from the bottom of my soul but want to not be with him from time to time. I feel like I need guidance but I have no friends Anymore and the family I do have don’t wanna hear about it. I’m just so conflicted and everyone’s so quick to say leave him And start fresh but what about the other prospective idk im probably not making any sense. I’m emotional.