What do i do?? I love 2 people?? Can anyone relate?

If you read all this, thank you😩

Long story kind of short,

When i was younger I had a FWB named Matt and we were great friends and had great sex for over 2 years. We hung out with each others friends and got along great.

Well, i fell in love with him, and i fell for him HARD. We had a lot in common and meshed well. He was perfect to me. I used to write about my love for him, and though i had 1 bf before him i never loved anyone that deep and felt such a strong connection for someone. I kept this a secret though and never told him. I ended up moving away for over a year, i blocked him because i was focusing on myself. And at the time, we were just fuck buddies, according to him.

So i got a bf where i moved to and me and my ex bf and had a baby. Fast forward. My baby dad cheated on me and i now have a 3 year old son. We all moved back to my hometown.

Now, my babydad is still an ex but i have a new boyfriend. Ive been dating my current boyfriend for a year and a half. We hit a few rough patches but we’re trying to work it out. And i love him, hes AMAZING. And again, i have so much in common we are basically the same person.

But, in the back of my head for 5 years ive always thought about Matt. i think about him for at least a second every couple days. I emotionally got over him though. And would be okay going the rest of my life without talking to him. But after not talking to him for so long i still think.

Anyways, i just got a message from him on my social media, because he was blocked everywhere else, he had confessed his love for me. He thinks im the one for him and he says he intensely thinks about me every single day and always has. (Which shocked me because i too have been thinking of him ,but not like that) He says he should have dated me before. He said this once last year and once the year before and i block him every time. But i had unblocked him when me and my bf went through a rough patch last year. This year im not sure how he got ahold of me but he did.

All of those feelings i had are resurfacing??? It feels wrong and bad. But everything he told me is what i had felt about him before. He said he loves me and he seriously believes im the woman for him. But i told him no and im not interested.

I just feel weird i dont find him super attractive. There are certain things he does i dont like. But we get along and talk like no time has passed?

I told him im not interested and i have a bf and i blocked him after. But i still think about him and always have??

Is it meant to be?? Can anyone relate?? Either way, hes blocked for good and im working on my relationship with my boyfriend who i love a ton. But idk wtf is going on i cant avoid this feeling. I want it to work with my bf. I want to erase him from my mind and past but it will always be in the back of my head