I want this baby out now

I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes. I was struggling with my fasting numbers and got put on insulin. I’m also 40. My doctor told me last week we would induce on Friday July 22. I have had a countdown in my head and I kept telling myself I could make it. Today I go to my appointment and she tells me well now I’m not sure if we should induce early. I can schedule one for August 4. My original due date is August 6. I am so done. I am so sick of taking my blood 4X a day. I’m sick of giving myself an insulin shot every night. I’m sick of 2 appointments a week. I’m tired of hurting everywhere. I can’t sleep, I can’t move, I can’t poop or pee like a normal person. It’s been so hot with record breaking temps so I hate going outside. I really want this baby but he better be good with all this hell I’m going through. Sorry for the rant. I just really need to get it out and hope for a better day tomorrow with less emotions. Here’s to a healthy happy baby to come soon.