Gaslighting or abusive?

I'm a loyal person and I never cheated on him before but he always thinks otherwise and I never do... I can't even go to the store in the corner cuz he already thinks I'm cheating...I can't talk to no an uncle cuz he already thinks I'm getting laid with him... so we go to church but in our believes we can't wear makeup, I wear makeup anyway because I like makeup! I can't take a freaking photo of myself cuz he already thinks I'm talking to someone or sending them to someone when I'm not! I'm tired of him always accusing me of everything! I'm just tired! I can't even say hi to the freaken neighbors or if I know there name or if I want to give them food he already thinks I'm fucken them!

The last one he threatens me with saying that " your going to pay them all!"

But wait there's more!

I didn't mention to anyone in here that it's been a few times that he tried to kick me out.. " you want to be single pack your shit and get out I do my life you do yours" That's what he has said to me and has the nerve to look up girls on his phone...

UPDATE: so yesterday and Saturday was a huge fight and it also got physical.. he was pressuring me and pressuring me to talk to him by force when I wanted to be alone I was cleaning the bathtub and he was standing on the door pressuring me to talk when I didn't want to. He's always with that nerve to tell me that "if I want to leave that I can" or "YOU WANT TO BE SINGLE JUST SAY IT IDGAF I CAN MOVE ON RIGHT AWAY YOU WANT TO BE WITH SOMEONE ELSE JUST SAY IT"

"GO AND DO WHATEVER TF YOU WANT"

That moment I was done with him and I threw water at him, and the bleach bottle was next to him so he grabbed that and threw it at me hard it hit the side of my pelvic area...it was the worst fight I had and I never got hit by someone ever. I tried leaving I even called my dad and my husband even took the phone away from me and he even froze my bank account..I wanted to leave so bad and I just feel stuck here... it's been like that all day yesterday and Saturday.. he told me that I was unappreciated and that I don't appreciate nothing that he does for me and that I don't value his time and his money... the many times I tried leaving he would stop me force me to talk things out and work it out... all this is just stressing me out I don't feel happy I feel stuck. He has threaten to kick me out so many times and has threaten to throw all my clothes out the apartment and cut off my phone and freeze my bank account.. he said I won't do it on my own if I leave him and that I'm just going to be broke and fail on my own... I tried defending myself but he would go against me all the time.... idk what to do I hate my life. He thinks that I'm the one disrespecting him and that I'm ungrateful with everything.

And Yesterday just because I didn't want sex with him he started giving me the silent treatment and he even packed his stuff yesterday evening he said he wasn't going to live like that, he even grabbed a pair of pants and shoes to go out where he was going to stay... he said if he can't get it at home that he's going to find it somewhere else... after everything he still wants me to fuck him after how he fucken treats me he still acted like an ass trying to kick me out too and threaten to throw me outside with my clothes and freeze my accounts just because I didn't want sex with him! He threaten to take away my phone and disconnect it! He told me if I leave not to come back! I'm still stuck here because he forced me to stay and work things out and I even gave in... I feel like I had no choice. He even ate me out yesterday and I feel like it was In purpose we had good sex after all the fights but I still feel dirty and disgusting....idk what to do I feel stuck here... I want to leave I want to be with my dad he lives in Mexico...