Girls help PLEASE - heartbreak

hi girlies,

I hope you’re okay. I’m going to try and make this short and sweet. I’m heartbroken. Mentally and physically drained. He wasn’t my first love, this was my second relationship so I was a lot more careful but I loved him intensely purely and a lot more than I ever imagined I possibly could. I dreamt of a future, I felt there were signs from “God” idk I thought this was it.

waking up in the morning is now a mission, I just want to love myself, I’m not suicidal but I feel everyday I’m getting pushed towards it. Will it get better? Please someone tell me what I should do.

My biggest fear is that 1) I won’t be able to love someone again. 2) I don’t want to think about him when I’m with my future children or anyone else.

I would appreciate any advice as a friend, sister or mother, because I am hurting so deeply I just want someone to give me some form of pill to calm my brain down, which seems to be running at 900 mph x

Thank you so much x x