Feeling guilty about stopping meds

I have an undiagnosed autoimmune disorder that is somewhere under the lupus/RA umbrella. No one knows exactly what it is but I have been prescribed methotrexate. I stopped the methotrexate when I got a cold, as instructed, and now months later with it out of my system, I feel almost 100% better. I haven’t felt like this since years before anyone even realized I had a problem.

I informed my primary doctor of this and she made me feel guilty about it. I hated the side effects and it wasn’t helping. It was safe to stop.

I’m terrified to see my specialist now, the one who prescribed it, and I feel like I’ve done something bad. I made the best choice for me and it is helping, but I feel awful about it because of my dr.

Has anyone gone through something like this before?