Hate this stage

I wish I can be like some moms and actually enjoy their baby stage I just can’t my daughter since she was born have been such a difficult baby. It gotten better but at 10 months old all she wants to do is be held she only stays content in the car or watching cartoons. If I put her on the floor to play or crawl with her toys she just sits/lays there and start crying I just want to breathe I want her to start walking or crawling already so she can play