Abortion- maybe I just need to vent..

So I was 14. I was dating this guy. We were having issues. He’s 19 with a car. My mom knew we were having issues and he came over to talk. We stood out front and I told him I didn’t want to be with him anymore and wasn’t budging. My mom came out and insisted I leave with him to talk it over. I felt like I couldn’t be home. I’d never been to his new place. And when we got there he had to sneak me in upstairs past his roommates. Being sexually abused before I knew all he wanted was sex so I gave it to him thinking that way I wouldn’t get hurt. (He used to hit me) he cums in me… the only time it’s ever happened and he said no worries babe I’ll get the morning after pill. He did, waited over 3 days and I said fuck you. I got pregnant. The drs and my mom and family told me it was ectopic and I had to have an abortion. I grieved and pained for years. Then at age 27 I get pregnant with my husbands baby. He’s healthy and 7 months old now and I couldn’t be happier. What gets me is when I was pregnant they ask all the questions like have you been pregnant before.. I answer honestly. My doctor looked very puzzled and asked for record. It was never ectopic. I was heartbroken. Just tonight I’m talking to my sister and she said they suspected it was but confirmed it wasn’t and it was a healthy pregnancy. My mom and sister lied my entire life. And in my eyes kinda took one. That was my choice to make at 14. I could have a 14-15 year old right now but I don’t. And I miss him/her.

Also what trigger this is after talking to my sister tonight she makes the comment… what’s it even matter there’s nothing you can do about it now. Just so heartless.