A little hope

Hi everyone, the IVF journey can be so hard emotionally and physically, and can break the strongest of people — it sure broke me. I always try to find other situations similar to mine online so I hope that this post helps someone. The one thing I learned is that sometimes it just doesn’t work and there is no good explanation. I have done two retrievals and five transfers in total. 1rst “best graded embryo” of 4ab was a chemical, 2nd transfer 4ab was my son 🥰 (he was a slow rising beta - 30-60% every two days - baby and my doctor told me to get ready for a miscarriage; I didn’t sleep for a week… — surprise! he is now a wild 2 year old), the next two transfers of a 4bb and then a 4bc in 2022 just didn’t implant with no explanation, so I was left with the “worst” quality 4bc graded embryo and questioning again if I was now “broken” in some other way. I even told my husband not to worry about leaving work to come to the transfer. Late September I went by myself and completely wrote it off. I felt NOTHING post transfer. Literally not.a.thing. I could have sworn that with the prior transfers I was pregnant because I thought I was feeling all sorts of “symptoms”. So you can imagine my surprise when, like always, I took a test on 6dp5dt and saw a line. As IVF survivors, we are so used to things going wrong. And While I do not know what the resolution of this pregnancy will be, I hope that this post gives someone else hope — things do not always go by the book, the “best” embryo grade is not always the best, the weird beta rises (while often do) do not always lead to grief, and so on and on and on. Hang in there 💕

UPDATE: 12dp5dt hcg 492; 14dp5dt 1275 6w1d saw baby’s little heart beat 122bpm