Does anyone else feel the same as me?

For the women on here who already have one baby/child but have experienced miscarriages since then…. Do you feel the same as I do?

Whenever I find out someone is pregnant for the first time I am not triggered by it because I have been through one pregnancy.

I have already been through what they have experienced before and can be happy for them.

I will say that the birth of our only son was very traumatic for us.

Me and our baby was really neglected during my labour and then I had to have an emergency c section.

Our son wasn’t breathing when he was born and was taken away from us.

He was in Nicu, Picu and he is an ecmo survivor we could of lost our only miracle son 🙏

This year my husband and I have been ttc for baby number two.

We have unfortunately had two miscarriages this year 💔

We have been ttc again so one cycle and we aren’t pregnant yet.

This is my second cycle and I think AF will be on its way in a few days 😪

When I see other women that are pregnant with their second/third/forth child successful I am triggered.

I just wanted the same to happen to me and my husband. For us to have another baby and a sibling for our son.

I get quiet emotional about it and I have a few acquaintances that I know who are pregnant now with their second and third baby.

What hurts is these women have the same monthly due dates as our baby losses.

I do try to be strong about it but it’s so hard.

Seeing them so happy with their children also seeing their growing bump and I don’t have my growing baby bump at the same time as them.

I am truly grateful for my one successful pregnancy with my son, but I just want to have another successful pregnancy again after our baby losses.