I don’t want to continue….

…if I get to 40 and don’t have children. I’m battling infertility and it’s got the better of me. Every minute of every waking moment, it’s what I think about. After a year of negative tests and nothing to show, I just went downhill. It’s 2 years now and I don’t know how much longer I can do this. I also don’t know what to do with my life if I don’t have any children. It’s all I’ve ever wanted and my life has lost meaning. I don’t want to live past 40 if I don’t have any children…. Otherwise I’ll be living a real life nightmare.