I’m 29 and want to find a long term partner, and have a family but I can’t find anyone to make me happy.

I have a few really good friends which I kinda use to gauge my relationships, if a relationship with someone doesn’t make me as happy as what my friends make me then why am I putting effort into this person that cannot make me feel how I want to feel?

I feel like I’m destined to never have another relationship, but I don’t want to be lonely anymore.

I have this one friend where I swear I would marry her tomorrow, typically though she’s straight. She just makes me so happy, just by being around her, there’s not many things in this world that makes me smile but she’s one. she’s a clinician and I’m a scientist we share the same specialty so we can talk about our passion and understand each other where I’m used to a blank face starring back at me pretending they understand what I’m saying.