Been together five years. We still live separately. I pay all of my own bills. I'm tired. I'm constantly having to be masculine and work super hard and pay for everything. I just want to embrace being feminine and cook and clean. Like after doing life alone 24/7 , all I want is to be a housewife. I have no desire to be a strong independent woman. I've done this all of my life. I know I can do it. I know I am a strong independent woman. But I'm tired. I'm 30 years old and I just want to be taken care of and spoiled. Am I wrong for feeling this way?

Not spoiled per say. I just want to be taken care of. I want to feel like I am a responsibility of the man I am with. Someone he wants to protect and provide for. I am a small woman from a southern state and it hurts to see every female around me getting to stay home, be artistic, follow their passions, have children. I just work full time, to pay for my living expenses and to " see" my bf on the weekends. I don't even have the desire for sex anymore at this point. Too tired. He makes three times the money I do. He could easily incorporate me into his everyday life and he just won't. He knows how hard I am working. He knows how stressed I am. And he only provides a shoulder to cry on, not a shoulder to lean on. And there is a difference.