I think I messed up girls, miss him sm.

long story short, I really liked this guy a couple years ago and we got close about this year. We started talking properly as in calls, text’s everything about 3 months ago, btw never gave him a chance before as I felt he only liked the way I looked. 3 months later we get really close I get vulnerable, even spoke to him about my mental health. He was very supportive and caring. A while back his communication was a bit off so I bought it up (we are grown adults and I get that we get busy) btw the replies I was receiving were 10-12 hours, anyway that changed he apologised and said he will try to do better. Communication went left and I was upset so I didn’t want to bring it up again he’d give me a call every 2 days or so. Fast forward to last week Thursday this is where it all went wrong, I was sick and he called he asked if I was okay mentally (said he’d come down to see me if I wasn’t, he lives in a different city)

as he knew I was depressed before ( I was ok btw) he wanted to take me out and the angry me said I don’t think I want to be seen with you, due to the energy change and everything he responded with ‘ once you stop being so stuck up give me a call in a month or so’

I felt bad the next day and I messaged him saying sorry and I was really out of line, the response was basically chill bro. Anyways I left it weekend comes I send him a Snapchat I get aired! Now I’m really upset because WTF. Monday I call him no response till today no text no call no nothing! I know I fucked up but damn you ignoring me. I’ve cried so I’m not that hurt but I felt like he was my soulmate. I really do miss my bestie. I’m I a bitch?