one of those days

we just ate our first snack of the day and I grab my infant to clean her off and get her a new outfit. this takes me no more than five minutes to do. as I return to the living area, I see my toddler has a box of liquid suppositories in her hand. I grab the box and see one is completely gone (only the cap was in the box) and two others were obviously tampered with. I ask my daughter if she ate them and she initially says no but then she says yes, so ofc I start to freak out and immediately call poison control. poison control calms me down and assures me my daughter will be fine… *big sigh* still can’t help but feel like a failure. my daughter could’ve been seriously harmed because I stepped away for a few minutes.

the suppositories are in our pantry with other miscellaneous items. there was a magnetic child lock on the door but it recently broke and I did not plan to fix it because we are moving next week. now I realize how big of a mistake that was on my part.

my husband and I have been talking about trying to get pregnant in February and then this happens. really makes me feel like I do not have it in me or even capable to raise another child.

posting here because I’m sure I’m not the only SAHM going through it.