Wishing death on mother in law ?…

It’s so cringe to say this.. and sometimes have deep deep guilt of feeling this way.. but do any of you ever just wish your mother in law died and know your life with your husband and rest of the family be in PEACE! She’s an evil, manipulative, narcissistic, bad ugly person.. she’s harassed, disrespected, crossed boundaries, manipulated, and kept my husbands son from him for about 7 years! Sometimes I think if she wasn’t around on this earth like would be sooo much better. My husband and his siblings would be closer because she wouldn’t be alive to manipulate or spread smear campaigns against me and my husband.. my husband and his son from a previous relationship would be healed and closer because she won’t be around to manipulate his sons mom into not letting him get his own son! Our daily lives won’t be built off anxiety and guilt when his mom wants to pop in and out in and out of our lives.. my husband will no longer feel a guilt of having to keep her toxic ass in his life but he kind of does because it’s “his mom”… she’s completely uninvolved and tarnished her relationship with our kids. I’m not a bad person, I get along with EVERYBODY, I’m respectful and I have done every single thing I can to please this woman.. and for 7 years I would cut her off from ME each time she disrespected me, talked about my family, blame shifted me… but I keep giving her chance after chance after chance after chance. But the last smear campaign she wrote out in our family group chat saying I’m the biggest downfall of the family, said I have an “evil spell” on her son and I’m out to get all of them and that I’m selfish… I’ll NEVER speak to that woman again in my life nor will I ever trust someone who thinks so ill of me around my kids… have any of you wished death on a MIL ? 😭 or is this a not normal sick thoughts…