Fear of Couples Massage

Ol

Hello all -

I’m 25 weeks pregnant and my mother and sister decided to get my husband and I a couples massage for Christmas. I looked it up and it’s a $300 package with a private suite and lots of things included. I’m grateful they would give us such a generous gift.. but I have a serious problem with massages. I actually HATE them. I’ve never been to a spa, I have gotten massaged (in clothes) by a masseuse and hated even that - I especially can’t stand the thought of someone touching me without clothes. I don’t want my husband and I to be naked in a room with strangers (or anyone for that matter) Since I’ve gotten the gift, I’ve actually had serious anxiety about the prospect of having to do it. Not only does my husband want to go, but I would feel so terrible if I had to tell my mother and sister that I hate the gift. I know it’s my own messed up fear, but there’s something gross to me about the whole thing. No one should be seeing me nearly naked and touching me except my husband, and I feel the same way with him. Im so sad over the whole thing and I expressed this to my husband and I can see how disappointed he is. Should I just suck it up an go? Is this a completely irrational fear? I don’t know what to do. I just needed to talk about it somewhere.