How will I be a mother of three…

I’m just sitting here… tired and in pain pregnant as all get out.. I have been nesting so much since I got on maternity leave last week. I have organized like everything in my house that’s already organized and cleaned most things in my house. I feel like there’s still so much to clean and organize. I know I’m also trying to keep my mind off of my c section in a week… I will have a baby in 8 days or less. I am absolutely terrified.. this is my third baby second c section… I don’t know what is going to happen in labor. I have had insomnia for like three days. I wake up and can’t go back to sleep… I feel like I still have to do everything myself. I know there’s certain things around the house I should do but I do then anyways and they cause me lots of pain later in the day but it’s fine it’s getting done… I’m stressed I’m going to have to do all my housework after my c section or else it’s not going to get done and I hate a messy house… I feel overwhelmed, upset, stressed, scared, tired, over it and just worried about what is to come…how will I have three kids? How will I take care of all of them? How will I love all of them? How will they all love me? How can I keep them safe and healthy? How can I keep myself healthy mentally and physically after a third kid? How can I even function mentally with a 3rd kid…? All the questions I have no answer to… good luck to all the other mommas out there going through the same thing..