I feel like I’m going nowhere

In 2019 I ended a long term relationship (he was abusive in multiple ways). I have yet to even go on a date with someone because I’m scared to trust anyone again and I have a lot of trauma from that relationship. I’m going to be 26 and I just feel like my life is going backwards. I had to move back home after I got out of that relationship and I cannot afford to get an apartment by myself. I feel hopeless and like I’m going to die alone. I would like to meet someone but at the same time, I don’t feel like I can be vulnerable again. I see friends and coworkers doing so well in life, getting married, buying houses etc. and here I am basically fighting my brain everyday. I struggle with cptsd, ocd, anxiety and depression. (And yes I am in therapy). I feel like I’ll never have a “normal” life again or ever be truly happy.