Day care fears

One of the reasons I don't leave my husband is because who's going to watch my kids when I start working somewhere. I'm a SAHM and I have watched my kids since day one. I'm terrified of what can happen to them in someone else's care. I have two kids 3&2 and they're both speech delayed. They can't tell me if someone or something happened to them. I am so scared that I've decided to stay in a dead end relationship but it's becoming exhausting. Any advice on how to ease my nerves on days cares. Or words of encouragement to power through this relationship until my kids start talking 🥲

For my curious readers; My husband just doesn't change. Every year he's pulled something. He's great guy tho💀 He a loving father and good provider. He just lacks the common knowledge of how to maintain a relationship. 7 years into it, and I'm tired of forgiving. I'm tired of giving so much to someone, who can't even give me the bare minimum back.