Just need to vent 🥺

My boyfriend and I have been together almost 4 years. We have a 3 year old together. Well he blew his whole paycheck on weed and then treated me like dirt because he was completely broke. Well he didn’t have money to buy a vape so he woke up this morning pissed off saying I’m a bitch and he can’t wait until I find a new man and he can see I’m worthless. Well I was obviously upset so I went to go sit in my car and he yelled “you’re forgetting to take your son with you like f’ing always, why don’t you just disappear and leave us alone for good” I’m so upset I can’t stop crying :( I am trying. But it doesn’t feel like enough. I am a full time student with a full time job and I just can’t stand myself right now.