My heart hurts

It's difficult to get up and live my life. How do I get unstuck? My heart hurts my boyfriend of years I found out he was using drugs and he was sleeping with this woman who was heroin addict I found the needles his friend called me and told me that he was using all kinds of drugs and told me the truth about everything.

We had just moved in together and we were planning on getting married and starting a family. I told him the truth and he said he was sorry. He got drunk that night and told me I didn't deserve this and I felt so hurt like why wasn't I good enough why wasn't I what he wanted why did he chose her over us she was married had three children and was older . In the end she also left him for a different man.

I'm struggling with things how do I let go and move on no one talks about how shit you feel after a break up how did you guys move on

There's movies about men who after a breakup are completely crushed change into a completely different person they drink they don't shave they don't shower they sleep in they don't work it's this hurt after a breakup how do you let the pain go