14 DPO and negative HPT

So I started cramping on 8DPO-12DPO.

I have the soreness on my boobs and sensitive nipples. I'm bloated, my back hurts, I am moody and have NO sex drive. have a headache, nausea for one day. We've been trying for a 1 year now. One try of IVF and two cycles of FET. 7 months trying after reversing my tubes. I normally don't PMS. So I took a test and it's negative! SIGH!! This crap sucks. I hate that we have consistently look at our hpt wondering if there's two lines there or going mad. I turn on the bright lights, in hopes that we can see those two line.

Sometimes we see an indent line and our hopes get crushed. I know I ovulated way late this cycle and I know it’s normal, cause I started clomid, but my heart aches waiting for the positive or AF!

It shouldn't be this hard to get pregnant.