BFN and so sad.. first cycle ttc at 10 months postpartum (breastfeeding)

Hi!

9dpo today and bfn.. tested yesterday at 8dpo and both yesterday and today are pure white tests.. i usually get a positive if positive by 8dpo so i know for sure i am out this cycle. I am sooo sad😭 I am almost 11 months postpartum now so this “cycle” was my first ovulation (strong positive opk) since giving birth. I havent gotten a period yet because i am still breastfeeding but hopeful now that my cycles are coming back. Here’s to hoping then that i get my first period in a few days and that my luteal phase is long enough! I just needed to rant and here some words of encouragement. 😞😞