failed ttc

we have been ttc since august 2021. we conceived july 2022, miscarried september 2022. we are still trying, change of diet, prenatals, exercising more, etc. no luck for us

my friend, just started dating her best friend, they conceived! she said “we weren’t even trying” …

my fiancé’s cousin called us yesterday to tell us she is also expecting and “we weren’t even trying” …

i am happy for them. i am. it just hurt so much hearing “we weren’t even trying” when WE have been trying for so long. it has put me into an emotional funk because something must be wrong with me. i just don’t feel like the best version of myself. i feel so hurt and so sad for myself. i just feel so sad for us. it’s just sad. it’s so sad.

makes me feel like it’s not happening bc i’m not meant to. and i wish i could just know instead of so much heartache