Living with parents

I have a disability and I have to live with someone who can help me. I'm living with my parents and I appreciate them so much.

Me and my mom were out one day and a man approached us handed us a flyer to go to church and the church was right across the street and I met everyone in the church I went once a week but they have church activities five days a week.

2020-2021 I stopped going to church because of COVID the whole church had COVID and the church started to be Virtual

So 2022-2023 the church reopened people had vaccination for COVID, FLU

My mom and I would go every Sunday together and she went the rest of the days to church and She would start to get dressed early and leave to go to church quietly and I would miss Church the one day that I went.

I would wake up early get dressed and she would find a way to sneak off even though I was fully dressed for church.

There's church the weekdays that are in the afternoon so since Sunday she sneaks off by herself I told her I would go the weekdays she said that sounds great so the days of the week I get ready and she says oh I got to go to church see you later bye grabs her keys and leaves.

So church was the one place I could socialize the rest of the days I'm home alone and it gets lonely and I don't know how to talk to my mom about what she's doing because sometimes she will actually start arguments fighting so I will not go with her to church she knows I don't like it when people are angry. So I don't know what to do I depend on her for ride and I want to go to church but I don't know who to talk to about it.

So today this afternoon is church what can I say to her?

What do you think is going on why does she want to go to church alone why does she treat me like that yesterday she had to go to church and she gave me this look like she was angry at me and like I was beneath her and she said I'm going to the Pastors wife house and I wanted to ask if I could come but I waited to see if for once she would invite me so she was smug and just left didn't ask if I wanted to come how my day was and I was left alone the whole day most days are like that. I'm alone.

She goes to work 8am-5pm church 6pm-11pm weekdays and Sunday 10am-to 4pm

I feel rejected and alone I don't know what to do but if you can pray about this situation and offer advice and explain what going on with my mom and myself and pray for us