Overwhelmed! Advice please!

I know this is not the place to post this but I'mlooking for as much advice i can possiblyget please. I'm recently turned 25, daughter of immigrants. Living at my moms wouldn't be the worst if it wasn'tfor my grandmother. The constant shame, the constant talk down to, the constant reminder I'm the disappointment, etc. I was working, lost my job in February cause of rascism (at a bank). Been looking for something ever since, Nothing! I am in college, pursuing 2 degrees, paying for school FULLY out of pocket. My savings is done (i have to pause the school for now). I was not getting respect, privacy, and a little peace in the house, for myself I had to leave. I have great credit (730+) i had a little saving, i have great records,never smoked, allergicto alcohol (shame). I'vebeen appling for apartments since march with my friend cosigning for me. Impossibleto find anything. I've been staying at a friend's but her daughter is coming back from college so i have to leave. I am in Massachusetts btw. I get to a point where i feel like leaving earth is the only solution for me. The country where i.come from is really unsafe. I know if i go there in less than a week I'll get that. Yes! I am su**dal! Please dont say get help! Things have been going from bad to worse since i was 15 (when i cane to america). I know what would make me feel better. A place to live in PEACE, 2 okay paying job (on site or remote) im not lazy! And peace far away from my family for atleast a year. But non of that is possible. I reserve a ticket to my country for monday. And if i find no solution.... i rather d*e than go back to my mom's. My mental and physical health can'ttake it. If you know any jobs hiring online or in the boston area in MA, if you know anyone renting an apartment also in any middlesex or Suffolk county area. Please help me, advise me. Yes I'm young, yes things will get better, yes I'mbetter than most, ive heard it all. But i only know how i feel. And it's bad!!