Endometriosis - I lost my baby

Trying to become pregnant again after losing our first baby is one of the scariest and most helpless feelings I’ve ever had.

I’ve been told by at least 10 doctors how difficult it would be to become pregnant, if I ever did at all. A month into our marriage, we unexpectedly, were expecting in September 2023. Scary, confusing, panic, but excitement.

We are a mid-late twenties couple, I know we have so much time. But the fear of never becoming pregnant again haunts me. The fear of never being able to hold our baby in my arms one day, destroys me.

I thought this would be the month.. again.. yet it was not. The let down and sadness that comes with another period almost becomes traumatizing.

I’ve lost my hope. And that’s heart breaking.

How do I fathom never being able to have my own baby. I’m 25. How do you change every plan you had made for your future family?

And how do you not lose your marriage along the way..