Breast Cancer Scare

Howdy, I’m a 22F… my boyfriend was feeling my breasts one night when he noticed a few lumps. He was freaking out about it for months and was urging me to go to the doctor. Well I had gone and they ordered an ultrasound. I really wasn’t prepared for the result being I do have a growth…

They labeled it on my chart as “probably benign”. I’ve never heard of “probably” being a medical term and my family was furious. They told me to come back in six months for a follow up.

The six months is here and I’m nervous as hell. One of the signs of breast cancer is swollen lymphnodes around the breast… well they found the growth on my left side where my left lymph node had been swollen and tender for the past five plus years, even so having a doctor once freak out telling me it wasn’t a lymphnode and ordering an emergency ultrasound just to find out it was.

Im just scared. I set up the appointment for Friday the 9th and they’re having me do a mammogram and an ultrasound. I know have a wonderful support system (having my boyfriend and my best friend both tell me if I had cancer and had to go through chemo, they would shave their heads with me if it came to that). But I just have this gut wrenching feeling something’s wrong. I don’t know how to go into this feeling calm and confident that I’ll be okay. It’s too early for me to be thinking of every worst case scenario and playing those in my mind. I guess my ask here is: how do you calm your anxieties about things like this? And how would you deal with finding out you have breast cancer? Even more so, if it spread to other parts of your body?

I’ve always been an over thinker and extremely pessimistic but this feels different. I’ll keep you guys updated but let me know x