Feeling jealous - mom addition

I am a first time mom and just went back to work. Now I do have a stay at home job which I’m thankful for but I still would love to be with my baby full time as a stay at home mom. We have him part time in daycare and then two days we have babysitters at home with us which has been awesome.

Anyway- I’m getting jealous of the moms around me in my circle who all get to be stay at home moms. I just feel like I’m doing a disservice to my baby. My cousin, friend and now my husbands cousin all are first time moms and all are choosing to stay home.

Sadly I don’t have that option. I have student loans that need to be paid off and a car payment each month. I’m just so mad at myself. Like I want to spend the most time with my baby as possible and I don’t mind working and have a pretty easy job but still need to be focused during the job. Ugh.

Any moms have any reassurance because I just feel like a bad mom I guess. And I’m currently missing my baby