Why is it called “miscarriage”? I didn’t lose a pregnancy, my baby died.

I am fresh off my first loss. I have 2 healthy children so this was a huge blow. It was also an unexpected pregnancy, but I was so joyful. I can’t stop crying. I did have some weird spotting, but my HCG still rose for over a week. Finally, it started to fall and I suspect that’s when my body absorbed what had formed of the baby. I didn’t have a typical loss of cramping and bleeding and I’m thankful for that, but I cannot reconcile this. I just feel like this never should have happened. I suppose it’s because I felt like God told me I wouldn’t lose my baby, but I did. Now I feel like I don’t know how to hear Him. Worse is my husband didn’t want this to happen (it was his worst nightmare to get pregnant right now) and had a horrible reaction. He repented and apologized to me too and I forgive him, but he still doesn’t want another baby maybe ever. My heart is so broken. I wanted this little one so much.

I suspect my hormones were imbalanced and also I developed difficulty using the bathroom that was not a UTI which could have caused the loss.

I know this is a Christian group and I’m asking all ladies who see this, my sisters in Christ, to pray for me. I hate that I want another baby and my husband is against it. I also hate that I even have to deal with fertility at all right now. My husband won’t come near me because we don’t know what is going on since the loss, but my urinary retention makes me not want him near me anyways.

I think because I didn’t lose my baby the typical way I’m having a really hard time believing she’s gone. Also, I thought I had a better understanding of God’s voice than I apparently do. 😭😭💔💔