I need help

Admitting this is hard but everyday I wake up I’m miserable. Having children was never in my plans I knew it would be too much responsibility for me at such a young age yet I have 2 under 2 at age 25.

I got pregnant after taking plan b. It’s something I resent my partner for.. ik it takes two to tango which is why I decided to keep them and raise them with so much love but there are days where I just fall apart. I’m embarrassed to say I have two kids, I mean I’m proud of them I love them they’re everything to me but being a mother has just sucked the life out of me. My days are full of crying babies, changing diapers, changing clothes, bathing them, feeding them, cleaning up after them the chores never stop yet my partner still tells me I don’t do anything. I’m exhausted I don’t sleep i forget to eat. I used to be full of ambition but now I’m lucky if I even get to shower. My high school friends all graduated and have successful careers, yet all I’ve done is have kids. How can I juggle everything and find a balance to also care for myself??! I’m miserable but this is the life I chose. 💔