8 years WASTED!

I’ve been with my kids father for 8 years! I did everything for this CHILD. Legit held him down when he didn’t have a job for a long time, legit just paid for him to have his car towed as well as to pay off his insurance and not even a week after I did that he told me he wasn’t in love with me anymore. But then come to find out while I was pregnant with our not even 2 month old daughter he was cheating on me!! I kicked him out and he went to go live with this whore (yes I say whore cause she knew about me the WHOLE time) and her two kids instead of being here with his two kids!!! Absolutely despicable!! He told me when I first found out I was pregnant he didn’t want another kid but then we actually sat down and talked about it and he said he wanted our child. I asked him before I was too far along if he would leave me if I kept the baby and he said no. HE DID EXACTLY WHAT HE SAID HE WASNT GOING TO DO!! So now I’m alone with 2 kids to raise, little to no money because I’m on maternity leave. I feel so disappointed in myself for thinking I would get the family I always dreamed of.