Hard time getting excited…

Anybody else experience a previous loss and have a hard time getting excited or even hopeful about this pregnancy? I feel like every day i’m just waiting for the end…

I had a mmc in my first pregnancy at 9w3d and had a traumatic expericence dealing with it (2d&cs, 2 rounds miso, and a hemorrhage…). I then learned my husband has a varicocele and we didn’t even think we could get pregnant. Had just reached out to a fertility specialist to get me tested before my hubb’s surgery and got pregnant.

Last weekend, I thought I had another MMC because my nausea decreased and was shocked at my first ultrasound on Monday when there was a heartbeat at 7w1d. I’m just having a hard time believing it won’t all go to 💩