Pregnant and grieving.

Hi ❤️

I am just joining this group now after finding out on Saturday that baby #2 is on the way. A few hours after I found out, I was notified of the loss of a close friend in an unexpected and tragic accident.

I was so excited to be pregnant again and give my one year old girl a sibling, but after finding out about my friend I just feel like I don’t even care.

The juxtaposition between life and loss seems wildly inappropriate and I wish I could feel happy or excited about this pregnancy but it just feels so wrong right now.

and I feel so guilty for feeling that way because I was elated when I became pregnant with my first.

Will I ever be able to celebrate things in my life again