Gender disappointment

I’m pregnant with our last baby, baby number 6. We have 4 girls and 1 boy. I wanna start by saying I will love this baby more than life regardless of their gender.

But with this being our last baby I’m very stressed that it’ll be our 4th girl in a row. I had some mild gender disappointment with our last daughter because I for sure thought she was a boy the entire time (we even called her by the boy name we chose for 24 weeks). Now that this is our last child i want more than anything for our son to have a brother, and they all keep asking for a brother (they were also a little sad when we found out it wasn’t a girl last time). I’m trying not to get any hopes up and just go with it will most likely be another girl. I just need to vent because I know someone might feel the same. I just feel like we won’t be complete without another son, like I feel in my heart and soul that we’re meant to have another son. And I’m just so scared to find out the gender incase it’s not a boy, because I’ll feel completely terrible for being upset about it, because all that truly matters is baby is safe and healthy.

I hope I don’t sound ridiculous. I’m just up and down with thoughts and emotions, especially since this is our last child.