I just don’t know

So, I have been feeling this feeling lately. I can’t talk to anyone about because they will say ‘it will happen’ ‘it’s just not your time yet’ and so on and so forth. But I just have to get this off my chest and say it somewhere. I don’t feel like I will ever get pregnant. I just have a feeling that it will never happen. To give everyone a back story. I was engaged once and was young and thought he was the one. Started ‘trying’ for about a year. Nothing happened. I am married now and have been for 5 years. Have not really tried but have not tried stopping it either. But still nothing happened. This cycle I completely missed my period took 2 test both negative. White as white paper. But I just had this feeling of there in no uses it will never come. Why given try and be heart broken every time. I have alway wanted kids. I have always wanted to be a mom. To be there for someone that could love you unconditionally. But I just don’t see it any more. I’m sorry for dropping this on everyone. I hope and pray the best for every one.