Making my pregnancy hell

A while ago I posted a few statuses about my ex bf blocking me after telling him I was pregnant. Eventually we spoke again and things went south again. I decided not to go through with the abortion. I started bleeding and went to the er. Turns out he gave an std, chlamydia. He refused to acknowledge he has cheated on me and tried to turn it in me. He called me today to convince me to abort. He said we argue a lot and I was going to make his life a living hell once I have the baby. (I found this funny. He’s made all these 4 years hell for me lmao)

He started accusing me of purposely getting pregnant to trap him. He’s the one who refused to wear a condom all these years, but it’s my fault? He can never take accountability for anything.

He’s hot and cold. Has moments where he seems excited and a lot of moments where he doesn’t want it. He became extremely distant, deleted me off social media, ghosted me, and has only seen me 3x this whole month.

I like to believe if after bleeding, not being able to eat these past weeks, getting an std my baby is still healthy it’s because s/he wants to be born.

I’m already embarrassed enough dealing w him. I haven’t told anyone I’m pregnant yet so I’m just here venting my feelings…