FTM… send help

I’m a FTM & I had my son on 11/11/23 ( 6 weeks ago )

Lately my son has been doing this thing like every other night where he won’t go to sleep. He will stay up for hours for example tonight he’s been up since 10-11pm it’s almost 3 am. He whines when I sit him down & if I’m not holding him right he’ll whine too. I gave him gripe water, fed him, changed him. I’ve gone down the check list. Sometimes he will literally be falling asleep but then he fights it or something will set him off & I don’t know what. I’m a single mom & this is my first baby. I’m tired & some nights I feel bad because I Lowkey hate being a mom. Or I cry & feel myself getting restless. It’s hard doing it on my own. I do have my moms help sometimes & she’s great but overall I just want whatever this is to be over…