I usually got the baby blues first couple weeks after having my two girls I’ve got a 7 year old and a 2 year old my second wasn’t as bad as our first I think because we tried for almost 3 years for her and I was beyond ready for another, everything was exciting the whole pregnancy/labour & postpartum I was loving it all I’m currently 38w with our first boy and I was beyond excited for it all we tried for him we lost 1 four months before him I was suppose to get induced 2 days ago which got cancelled and since the night before the supposed induction date I’ve just been scared not to give birth it’s honestly my favourite part but I’m just scared for my mental health. This pregnancy has been a challenge and my two year old has become really difficult to handle nearing the end of this pregnancy I’m hoping it’s true I’m just giving off a hormone that she’s picking up on but im just scared and feel like ppd or baby blues will hit me hard I am honestly feeling the baby blues and he’s not even hear yet it makes me feel guilty, my partner has a great job we are home owners we have our own vehicles and more than ready this time around than with our other two and I just can’t shake this feeling that I’m going to fail. I have guilt because I should be more than excited since it’s our first boy, my whole life I was told my mom was a good mom until she had my brother that something just mentally happened to her and he was the 3rd so I’m scared that maybe got out in my head I have no relationship with my mom because of the things she did to us growing up.. she became very terrible I think I’m subconsciously scared that’s going to happen to me and maybe that’s why I’m feeling this way I just feel like anyone would say obviously not that it’s just my hormones idk im shocked that I’m scared and feeling emotional about it.