Mixed emotions

Does my husband love me? He has put his hands on me numerous times. Only when angry or when we are arguing and he says I’m disrespectful. When we aren’t arguing he’s such a sweet man. He rubs my feet holds doors open.. Carry my bags.. hold my hand..n all the respectful things. He gives me money at times and he’s very sexually attracted to me. We joke laugh watch tv. But when we aren’t in a good place he’s violent. He says he knows he is violent and that certain situations take him there. He said he wanted to have therapy but never started. I’m just trying to hold on and not give up on my husband