My first week.. since I left

Now obviously I didn't just leave.. I planned this and worked towards it for almost 2 years.

I found a beautiful little apartment with a lovely land lady, it's better than I could have ever dreamed of.

The energy rating is perfect, the kitchen is my size, the walls had my favorite color.. The bathtub is just perfect.. and I am at PEACE ❤️

After 10 years of being with my (suspected) narcissistic ex (his mom and sister told me they think he is narcissistic, I recognize he definitely has narcissistic tendencies for sure.. I am not a psychiatrist so I can't diagnose him, it's just a matter to describe the stress I was under) I can finally feel peace in my own little place.

It's rough sometimes because I don't drive but honestly, I have the most important things within cycling range.

But the peace.. it almost has me crying tbf.. I can't remember ever being this much at peace. Nothing costs effort.. the cooking or the cleaning or the laundry.. they don't seem to drain me at all.. I just feel so grateful for everything in my life right now ♥️

**I want to add that I was never this much in peace because I come frome an abusive childhood home. I was in deep depression when I finally found my way out and I was still going to school and having my household to run. My house being a shitty, mouse-infested room had a broken shower in the middle of my living room, along with a toilet next to it.. also in the living room, my bed was also in the living room, I had no heater and my kitchen was literally a sink and a stove. It was quite quickly reduced to a teenage-room mess. I also was still a teenager.. but anyways.. After that I fell into 2 abusive relationships, but now.. I feel great. I feel grateful. I feel grateful for my job which made this possible, I am grateful for all of you who have been a support in finding out what is or isn't normal in a relationship, I am grateful for this place, because in my search for an apartment I have seen a lot of places which were a lot less.. of everything.