Deciding on last name.

So I did have a one night stand and I got pregnant (idk I just feel ashamed saying it that way but it is the way it happened)

I did tell my child’s father the day I found out n of course his reaction was valid because it happened that one night n we obviously weren’t using protection.

But he hasn’t been present during the pregnancy process he just texts me on his time .

Even if I text him about something he won’t respond . So I don’t bother texting him anymore

I did mention to him previously I was going to put my last name n he was saying “why would I do that if I was sure she’s his” which she is but I just would prefer my last name considering the circumstances . And then I thought about it and was thinking maybe it is right to give her his last name but I just keep getting this gut feeling to put my last name.

He seems like a good father to his daughter but there’s so many things I wouldn’t want him doing with my daughter for example letting her go over to a male family member house idc if there’s other children there especially when she’s a baby (1 years old I still consider that too small )

Letting other people change her diaper.

And I wouldn’t want him having random females “babysit” my child. So many things I wouldn’t want him doing.

I’m almost due n I’ve bought majority of what I need I’ll be due in June and he hasn’t bought anything or asked what I needed . I did tell him if he can buy atleast two things I need n no response until his timing I’m assuming.

I did choose to not have an abortion because I don’t believe in that I chose to not use protection so I am at fault I was feeling super guilty I knew I would fall into depression and I already have a son he doesn’t need me to be sad. God gives us babies for a reason.

But I just feel I am gonna go through with my last name ..