so insecure pt. 2

i’ll take some photos and i’m like wow i’m so pretty but that lasts a couple seconds and then all i can think is that im a catfish and i don’t look like that in real life, like i don’t even recognize myself in the photos. last year i looked a lot different than i do now, because i became more confident in my style and i gained a lot of weight ( i used to be rail thin) and now people compliment me all the time, whereas last year i rarely got a compliment. So i think to myself how much could’ve really changed in a year, like i must be as ugly as last year there’s no way i just got pretty like i don’t understand i don’t think that makes sense maybe in another post ill try and explain it better. like i said in pt 1 this is all ranting and i’m at a loss and i just want to hear from someone else who feels this