I need vent a little .....please help!

So I had my first beautiful daughter in March 23

I haven't worked since I gave birth so already officially 1year.

I am pregnant and symptoms feel different more intense this time around excess saliva light headed, a lot of vomiting....

Etc.....i truly don't feel like doing much it's rare wen I feel ok maybe like 2 days or 3 in a row I'll feel good.

I am trying to go back to work so I help my husband financially.

So far 2 interviews no luck yet.

Sometimes I ask myself will I even be able to work???wen j was pregnant of first baby i had entered a new jon at about 8 weeks too.

Since my employer sold company.

Can someone give me any advice??I feel helpless because my husband is alone in this.

We are bigg savers not that we have 1 income savings are going down.

I feel bad even for venting because I wanted this I'm only getting older I'm 31and I wanted my babies back to back.....I'm not a bad person. I thank God daily on this miracle

Please advice!