Pregnant and defeated

Just found out I’m 8 weeks pregnant with my bf of only two months.

He’s 33 and I’m 26.

I obviously want an abortion and he’s on the same page as me (but he clearly wants to keep it since he’s ready to be a dad)

I feel so defeated because I just left to TEXAS to work but because of these I’m not even motivated to talk to the public.

My job consist of getting signatures for the ballot but talking about politics when pregnant is not ideal.

My partner wants to take care of me but, he can’t even take care of himself. He’s always broke and borrowing money from me. He currently owes me over $700 so I don’t even expect him to help me pay for the pill.

I feel like I’m in such a dark place and idk how to get out. I booked a ticket back home already but I feel alone even with my bf.

Right now we’re staying at his friends house cause he can’t afford a hotel until he gets paid again and I don’t want to lend him anymore money.

He told me that I need to stop complaining cause it’s only going to make feel worse, I’m just so fucking depressed.

He’s been there for me emotionally but I know he’s not capable of taking care of me which makes me feel stupid. I don’t want to hurt him and I’m thankful how sweet he’s been but I’m draining him with my energy.

It wasn’t meant to be this serious