Need advice

So I need advice on whether to send a closure message to my fwb?

Recently, we’ve been through a lot together in these last few days lol. I found out I was pregnant w his child and opted for an abortion. I told him and he agreed it was the best choice. He was supportive through out and routinely checked up on me.

However, when they tested me for pregnancy I also told them to test me for sti’s/std’s. I get checked regularly and wanted to get it done all at once. My results came back yesterday and I was positive for gonorrhea. I told him and asked if he had other partners besides me, which he told me no. I did hook up with one other person, stupid of me to not use protection in the first place I know. So, in short, I was the one who gave him gonorrhea.

I obviously feel horrible about this situation bcs I really like him, I apologized in a message and he hasn’t responded (rightfully so). Basically, I’m wondering if I should send him a closure message in hopes he’ll somehow forgive me and we can still continue our “relationship” but with set boundaries.

I just feel so stupid and horrible, I never meant to hurt him.