Just need someone to hear me since i have no close friends to talk about this. What should I do?

I am 23 years old and currently working in IT field. So I had 2-3 relationships in the past. I was serious about my relationships. I broke up with my first partner bcz he was cheating on me. So 2nd partner broke up with me telling that my parents won't agree for our marriage. But came back after one week. He had time for his friends but doesn't text me or call me even if he's online. He also had girl best friends. I am very much possessive. I told him many times how hurt I was, but he didn't care.. and always lead to fights. He again broke up telling that I'm restricting his freedom. But he came back again. This continued.. I gave him 5-6 chances. It was like an on-and-off relationship. So finally I broke up with him bcz I was the one who was suffering. Then after 2 years, a guy proposed me. I thought he was serious about the relationship. I had started to have feelings for him. But later on, he told me that it was only for time pass. I was really hurt. After one year, i met a boy from snapchat. He is 3 hours away from my place. He doesn't have a job and he's preparing for hiring exams. He's 27 yrs old. We became friends. He told me that his gf broke up with him last year(5 year relationship) and he's not looking for any relationship. (During his exam time, he completely ignores everyone and isolates himself. So his ex gf started talking to someone else). I moved to another state for my job. I started to fall for him because he was everything I ever needed. He understands me even if I didn't say anything and stood by my side at my lowest. Finally I told him about my feelings for him. At first, he told that he's not ready for a relationship. But after few months, he said that he also had feelings for me. He came to see me. Then we had an intimate moment, right after that moment he remembered his ex and told me about her. I was really hurt. He wasn't virgin but I am. After that, his replies were late. He was online during midnight but my texts were unread. I asked him about this but he said nothing. Then finally he told me that his ex started texting him back. I was very much hurt that i distanced myself from him for a month. Why should I be the third person? After a month he texted me back and said his ex was playing with him for a month and she is already in a relationship with the other guy. I couldn't see him in pain so i started texting him again. He told me that he is over his ex gf. His ex gf got married with that guy. We got closer. He always come to my place to see me whenever he could and we stayed together for atleast 2 days and had sx. But after 4-5 months he told me that his family won't agree for our marriage. He also said that he doesn't want any relationship and he wants to be single. So it's better to keep a distance. But later he told me to wait for him till he gets a job after that we'll sort things out. He doesn't want me to move on. But sometimes he says that if you want you can date someone else but after that don't call or text him. I can't leave him bcz i love him so much. He is an extrovert and talks to anyone he sees without any hesitation. He lied to me many times and hid many things and his reason was "if u knew u would get hurt and I don't want that". Now there's a girl in his class he's friends with. She shares the notes and study materials to him. I told him to keep a distance from her. She gets sad when he doesn't text back or won't talk to her. And she calls him often. She called him yesterday when she's alone at home. I don't know what to do. Thanks for reading :)