Need a place to vent

So today has been an absolute shit show. This whole week has been a shit show.

This entire week so far, I have cried EVERY SINGLE DAY, lost it with my kids for not listening or going behind me when I cleaned (and I work my ass off to clean here) only to undo it and make bigger messes behind me.

The kids have fought, screamed, and destroyed the house. I've gotten so frustrated all I could do was yell (after having told them to stop multiple times).

My body is physically exhausted and I'm mentally exhausted and I keep having to get up ever 5 minutes to discipline the kids for doing things when they're told not to many times.

I don't sleep good due to being in my 3rd trimester, and I have to wake my husband up for work at 6 every morning, as well as wake up to my 20 month old like 4 times a night and having to get up to pee or medicate for heartburn.

I'm so over everything. The house is a wreck again and the weekend when everyone is home because my husband doesn't work, that's usually when everything is messed back up and I just resume cleaning monday-saturday, but I just can't do it.

I've questioned if I can handle this 3rd baby. I've regretted my choice in having kids at all, I've cried I've screamed, I feel like I'm losing it.

I was medicated for anxiety/depression but I haven't gotten anymore of it in about a month because I was going to try and use other methods to help my anxiety/depression. But this pregnancy is taking everything out of me. I feel restless and like I need to clean all the time, and when I do and the kids mess it up I lose it. My husband tells me to relax but he doesn't understand that I can't

I feel like everything is hopeless 😭