TW- Storytime: Made a mistake

About a month ago I was drunk and hooked up with my friend’s cousin. We were going on dates and having sex for about 4 days before he ghosted me. I found it weird because before he ghosted me, he had asked me to be in a relationship with him. I told him we could talk about it (obviously because we just met). A few weeks go by and I haven’t heard from him.

I noticed I missed my period. Later that day I took a pregnancy test and sure enough, it was positive. I texted him about the news and that’s when he told me he decided to work things out with his current bm.

Smh 🤦‍♀️ the shame and embarrassment I felt was crazy.

I never hooked up with anyone like that before & not to mention I had been celibate for an entire year before I met.

He asked me about an abortion and I told him no because that’s not something I would ever do.

If he didn’t want me to get pregnant, why didn’t he pull out? Or ask me about plan b. (He didn’t even know I took a plan B. )

(I learned that the plan B failed because I was already ovulating smh. )

Now idk what to do because I’m going to have to raise the baby myself. My finances are pretty good so I’m not that worried. Being a first-time mom alone is very intimidating and I had always imagined I’d be in a relationship so I’d have some kind of support.

I can’t help but feel heartbroken over this whole situation. Because who does that? Get a woman pregnant and then go back to their ex right afterward??? Pure evil 😪

I blame myself too for getting so drunk that night, but my friends told me not to be so hard on myself. It kinda sucks because I only remember a little bit of that night. I wasn’t in the right state of mind to agree to something like that. There’s a lot of mixed emotions I’m feeling right now.

Happy about the baby, sad about the daddy, scared to be the mommy…